After a good few years, i thought that it would be good to keep the blogging momentum on. Not only a channel where i can store the happenings and memories of my daily life, but also a channel to do some  serious reflections and to write better.

My life has been filled with many ups and downs for the past years, i've been through plenty happy moments like earning myself a bachelor degree, successfully securing a permanent job shortly after graduation, in pink of health and with loving friends and families around. On a side note, i've also experienced probably the worst down time in my life as well. Which is my first heart ache in relationships. I bet many people have experience heart aches once or more in their life and have probably moved on.

For my past 24 years, i guess i've taken too much things for granted, or maybe i'm always in the sheltered arms of people around me, or perhaps i'm lucky enough to have yet to encountered any heart aches . Just last year, i realized how unbearable heart aches can be. I left someone whom i loved with all my heart. People often say to cherish your love ones before you lost them, but what if you still lose them despite already cherishing them with all your heart? Where you still lose it despite already knowing the importance cherish and loving him. It is like a double edged sword that slashes through your heart, and you began bleeding profusely not knowing which wound to aid first. And it gets even worst when you are the one leaving the life of the person you loved deeply and at the most perfect moment. It is when you had too much love and it came to too much pain.

I had a very hard time getting myself back to feet. My friends told me they look up to me as a strong woman with great determination and courage to leave things or people that no longer serves or deserves you. But to be really frank, 1 year passed and i still misses him every single day, no one day lesser. I may appear to be nonchalant when people spoke to me about him and the relationship, but deep inside i get really devastated. The saying that goes "time heals", doesn't seems to work on me. I'm still looking towards to the day where i can fully moved on and that he longer is the misses that fills my life.

Waiting for that very day to come true soon.